Depression Is An Illness Not A Choice

Good Morning Everyone! I Hope You All Are Having A Great Morning. My Morning Is Going Great And I Plan For It To Stay This Way. Yesterday I Mentioned My Son Had Trouble Breathing And I Had To Rush Him To The Hospital. They Had To Give Him 2 Treatments And Steroids. And I Was Told To Follow Up With His Primary Care Dr. He Has No History Of asthma! That Was Scary But He Is Feeling Much Better And Doing Better. I Made His appointment, It Is For Tomorrow Morning. Thanks So Much For Checking On My Son Everyone. I Will Keep You All Updated. Those Who Know Me Know How I Am With My Son. I Loss A little Girl Year’s Before Him And I Couldn’t Handle It If Anything Happened To My JJ. Thank God He’s Okay.

Ok So Just Has The Title Says Depression Is An Illness I Have To Live With. This Is Not By Choice! I Didn’t Make Myself Depressed. I Don’t Want To Be Depressed. I Didn’t Make Myself Depressed. Depression Isn’t Something I Chose Or Would Choose. Who Would Want Mixed Feelings Or Happy One Minute And Sad Maybe 20 Minutes Later?! Who Wouldn’t Want To Get Up In The Morning Especially On A Beautiful Day? Who Would Want To Just Cry For No Reason?! Like Really? You Know There’s Some People That Think You Have A Choice To Be Depressed?! I Really Wish I Could “Snap Out Of It” But It Doesn’t Work That Way. That’s Why If You Haven’t Experienced It Before You Won’t Understand. Honestly, No One Would Choose This. I Don’t Wish This Upon No One. Can You Believe That There’s Some People That Think You Chose To Be Depressed?! They Just Don’t Understand That It Is Not A Decision We (I) Made!! That’s Just Stupid. But Hey Your Going To Run Into Some People That Don’t Believe In Depression, anxiety, Or Bipolar And Many Other Mental Illnesses Because They Haven’t Experienced Any Of Them. They Don’t Know What You Are Going Through. Through It All, I Continue To Pray And Ask God To Help Me Take Control And Day By Day I Noticed I Am Taking Over My Depression I’m Not Letting It Take Over Me. Letting Go And Letting God!!

I Know God Got Me. I Pray Everyday. I Pray Even More When I’m Depressed. I Pray On My Good Days And I Pray On My Bad Days. Some Nights I Can’t Even Get To Sleep Because Of My Mind Just Wandering All Over The Place And Won’t Stop. I sit And Talk To God. He’s My Friend. He’s My counselor. I Believe He Has Me Here For Reason. Even When I Feel Like Nothing I Know God Got Me Here To Be Something.

Published by Expressive Jackie

Hello Beautiful People, My Name Is Jackie. I Am 31yrs Old And I Have A 9yrs Old Son. Who I Love So Much!!! His Name Is Jayden. I Also Love To Write, Take Pictures,And Help Others. I Suffer With Major Depression And Anxiety On A Daily Basis But I Try Not To Let It Stop Me. God Got Me!!!

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