Hello Everyone! First off I would Like To Say Good Evening To Everyone. I Hope Everyone Is Having A Great Day. I Know It’s Been Awhile Since I’ve Been On Here But I Had To Have A Little Me Time. Living With Depression Is Really Rough At Times. Some Days You Ok And Some Days You Just Don’t Feel Like Being Bothered Or Just Wanna Just Be In Bed All Day. One Minute You Happy And One Minute You Sad. It’s Crazy Because It’s Something You Have To Deal With. You Can Take Your Meds But Some Symptoms Just Don’t Go All The Way Away.! I Deal With Major Depression And I Am Not Ashamed At All. Day By Day I Try My Best To Fight It Because I Am A Mother Of A Soon To Be 9Yr Old. I Pray To God My Son Does Not Have To Deal With Depression. I Don’t Wish It On Nobody Because If You Not Strong, Depression Can Take Over You! I Loss Someone Very Close To Me From Depression! Thinking You Can Handle It Yourself Is A No No. Nothing Is Wrong With Getting Help At All. Nothing Is Wrong With Having To Take Medication. There’s A lot Of People Out Here Suffering With Depression Thinking It’ll Go Away Or Ashamed To Get Help. You Don’t Have To Be Ashamed There’s A lot Of People Dealing With Depression On A Daily And There’s Medication That Do Help Out. When I Loss My Cousin To Depression It Took Me To A Dark Dark Place. A Dark Place I Felt I Couldn’t Get Out. I Had Just Talked To My Cousin The Night Before And To Hear That Next Morning From Our Family Members That They Found Her Dead OMG!! That Took The Life Out Of Me That I Did Have. I Already Deal With This Depression And To Hear That And We Was Close Broke Me Down!! She Told Me She Loved Me And I Told Her I Love You too Cousin. Never Thought That Would Be Our Last Talk! It Took A Few Months For Me To Get Myself Together. Everyday I Went To Her Grave. Everyday I Called Her Phone. I Prayed I Prayed Like No No! Don’t Go Cousin I Need You Here With Me. She Gone She Left Me Here Alone. I’m Crying Typing. I Really Miss Her. It’s So Hard. It’s Only Been 5 Months. She Was Only 33. And Her Bday Was Like 4 Days After she died. I Will Beat This Depression I Won’t Let It Beat Me. I’m Doing This For Her And My Son! I’m Not Giving Up I Can’t. She Was The Only Person Who Understood Me Period! She Was The Only Person I Had To Talk Too. But I Prayed And Prayed And Ask God To Give Me Strength To Get Through. You Never Know What Someone Is Going Through. Everyday Is A Battle For Me… But Everyday I Learn To Deal With It. Check On Your Family Members At All Times Even If It’s Just A Text. Check On Them. I Talked To My Cousin Everyday And She Had To Battle With This Depression Herself But I Didn’t Expect To Lose Her. My Depression Has Been Crazy Since She Left. I Backed Off From The Few Little Friends I Did Have. I Just Been Doing What I Have To Do As A Mother. Some People Just Don’t Understand. If You Don’t Deal With Depression You Won’t Understand. I Will Over Power This Depression. I Am Not Letting My Depression Take Over Me. God Got Everything Under Control And I am A True Believer. I Smile But Deep Inside I Just Wanna Go Hide Forever.

Published by Expressive Jackie

Hello Beautiful People, My Name Is Jackie. I Am 31yrs Old And I Have A 9yrs Old Son. Who I Love So Much!!! His Name Is Jayden. I Also Love To Write, Take Pictures,And Help Others. I Suffer With Major Depression And Anxiety On A Daily Basis But I Try Not To Let It Stop Me. God Got Me!!!

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