Simper

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Everyday is full…

Full of highs and lows

Full of tears and sorrows

Full of frowns and no hope for tomorrow

 I’m on this journey alone,

Hoping and praying that this pain,

this depression will release from me

I’m tired of pretending

Tired of hiding the feelings and emotions i feel within me

But through everything i still continue to smile

Smiling to hide the emotions, feelings, and guilt that

I feel inside

Pushing all the lies aside

To enjoy myself and to have a good time

It helps to make life worth while

I lost my daddy at a young age

I hated i had to say my daddy was dead

So many thoughts ran through my head

And til this day

I needed you to stay

I didn’t expect to be this way

Tell my baby girl mama said hey

I’ll never forget that day

The day she went away

But inside momma

She’s going to stay

But like i said through everything i still smile

Even if it’s for a second or 1 min

A month or maybe even a year

But a smile can make sadness disappear

I’m making progress

I have dreams of becoming a actress

Life is like a book

Because every day is a new look 

A new page

A new day

To do what you have to do.

I refuse to wake up in despair

I refuse to feed myself into distress

continuously look for a better way

Until then, i’ll stay focus and keep pushing.