The stigma that surrounds mental illnesses causes most people to not even try to get the help that they need. They feel embarrassed, or ashamed to admit that they’re dealing with a mental illness. But getting help just shows that you have plenty strength. Those who struggle with a mental illness are the strongest. Don’t be embarrassed.
There’s so much negative stigma about mental illnesses, it’s so hard to not be embarrassed or ashamed. Right? But what’s said about mental illnesses aren’t facts! In fact, it’s said by people who haven’t even experienced it.
Matter of fact, the stigma comes from people who don’t try to even get the facts, or people who have no knowledge on Mental Health.
Tell yourself this everyday:
Today is a fresh start, another day to keep fighting.
Tomorrow there’s always a possibility of sunshine. Just keep trying.
Tell yourself this everyday that you wake up.
Yes most times it’s hard to understand your own mind can tear you down. A never ending remorseless cycle, the overwhelming sadness, emptiness, numbness, feeling glued in your own mind that won’t slow down. How every little essential task you once took for granted now feels so hard to handle, feeling so exhausted, and it’s so hard to complete. An endless race, or marathon, of thoughts and feelings. The dark ones feeling oh so real, and strong. Yes you know for a fact that most of that isn’t true, yes you know that it won’t solve your problem, but that doesn’t matter.
Whatever you got to do to get out, and get away from this terrible, terrible pain. You’re feeling like you’re going to lose your mind, like you’re losing control of your own mind. You feel like you’re being forcedly sucked into this black hole of darkness, loneliness. Feeling like you’ve lost control.
Then here comes the shame and the guilt. You hate yourself because you can’t seem to control your mind, questioning what’s wrong with you, why can’t you get it together. Why is this happening to me? My life isn’t awful. I really have no reason to feel this way, at all. Why me?! The remorseless cycle seems like it will never come to an end.
This is a type of pain that no one can see. Smiling at everyone, but feeling such emptiness. You try to keep your life moving on like everything is a okay. Everyday is harder and harder. By the time nighttime fall, all you want to do is sleep, tired and exhausted, from your mind overthinking, with different thoughts, racing by the minutes all day long. While trying to act “normal.” Is there anyone who actually knows what normal is?
You have to realize that it is reality and you have to face it. It’s not about what people say, or what you may see online, or what’s on social media, it’s not the perfect pretty smiles, or a family who has it all together. It’s people with flaws and raw emotions growing in love. I have learned that depression and anxiety do not care what kind of life you live, and they definitely do not care who you is.
You have no reason to be ashamed, or embarrassed. So don’t be. You have no reason to be. You didn’t choose to be that way. I didn’t choose to be this way either. This is real. You can’t just snap out of this, this isn’t something you can talk yourself out of. No matter what your mental illness may be, you did not choose it. I was diagnosed with major depression and anxiety, it has been a very long process but this is me. I am not ashamed of being on medications, and talking to a counselor. It feels amazing, and I can actually live! I can actually breathe! Getting the help that you know you need, you’ll be able to breathe, and you’ll be able to live!
Mental illness has a million faces and I am not ashamed to admit that I am one of them. Honestly, I don’t even care who know, and who doesn’t know. This is me, Jackie. I’m so glad I got the help when I needed it. I didn’t want to be another statistic. It’s always nice to know that you’re not alone, but what’s even sadder is how many people go through life without getting treatment. I’m so sick of the stigma about mental illnesses. I’m sick of all the negative stigma that’s thrown in with it. Just because we “don’t appear” to have issues doesn’t mean our feelings are invalid.
As I continue to grow in life I’m learning that this is part of who I am. I’ve been embracing it and learning to cope. I don’t care who judge me. I don’t care what people say about me either. It just makes me sad for them and happy that I finally found the small light flash to guide me out to get the help I needed to get out of that darkness hole. Even though my journey has been hard, it’s been tough, dealing with it all by myself, but I’ll never give up! I will keep fighting and I will keep pushing. I don’t wish this on anyone.
You can and will be so proud of yourself. Live in the moment and be very mindful. Everyday is a step, a battle waiting, waiting to be won. Nobody’s perfect so it’s okay to have setbacks. Please get the help that you need, talk to someone if you are feeling like this. Don’t ignore it, thinking you can take over it, thinking it will go away on it’s own. You have no reason to be embarrassed. You have no reason to be ashamed.
You didn’t choose to be this way. Don’t give up! And most importantly… YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
Accept it, Face it, and Fight it!!!