Your Mental Health Matters

Good morning everyone. Happy Wednesday to you all, and i pray that you all have a blessed day.

Times get hard, but don’t give up, never give up, just keep pushing. Mental illnesses are extremely hard, and a lot of people don’t actually believe that they’re severe, and the affects that they can have on a persons everyday life. But that’s why im here, to explain, and to let everyone know that mental illnesses (depression) are in fact so real, that a person you’re around almost everyday, could be struggling with a mental illness, but won’t say nothing because of the stigma of mental illnesses. Being ashamed, and embarrassed, but im here to tell you, your mental health matters!

I wanted to share with you all how good my video is doing on Pinterest. If you have time, please do check it out. Let’s stop the stigma of mental illnesses. I’m so proud of how many impressions my video is getting, it means my video is being seen.

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Lost In Pain, Depression Poem

Lost, Pain, And Depression

I wonder what do you call it when all you feel is pain,

When you’re surrounded with your family, and they look at you, and all you feel is shame,

When you’re tired of living and playing this depression game,

At times, life feels meaningless and you’re the one to blame,

Feeling lost and those thoughts can make you feel insane,

Sitting here thinking like “My life isn’t the same,”

Feeling hurt deep in your soul,

When you’re smiling and laughing,

Knowing it’s all a show,

Feeling like you’re really at your all-time low,

Nothing makes you happy and everything dark begins to grow,

What do you call it when you feel all alone?

When you’re home but the house you live in doesn’t feel like a home,

Looking back at my life like why everything went so wrong,

If you struggle with depression, you are not alone,

Stay and remain strong! Don’t fight depression on your own.

Depression takes you to a very dark place. But you don’t have to go through it alone. There is help. Getting help doesn’t mean that you’re weak, it means you care about yourself and you want to beat this.

You are strong, don’t let your thoughts from depression stir you wrong. You don’t have to do it alone. Don’t be ashamed, you’re only human.

When Someone Says Depression Isn’t Real…

Do you know how it feels to struggle with depression, or any other mental illness?

You think depression isn’t real, but do you know how does depression feels?

Not wanting to live.

Not wanting to die.

All day, you lay down and just want to cry.

Not being able to explain those feelings you feel inside.

Feeling like nobody cares, cause nobody’s there by your side.

You wake up everyday, pretending to be okay.

Pretending to be okay, so nobody thinks you’re crazy.

Walking around, faking, like you’re happy, but deep down inside, you feel like your breaking.

Feeling full of despair.

Everyday it feels like a nightmare.

Feeling so worthless and so hopeless.

I just pray to get through those moments.

You think depression isn’t real, you think depression is all in the mind, well why are people committing suicide?

Why are people taking their own lives?

All of this, should open the eyes of the ones who think depression is a lie.

People are committing suicide everyday, and everyday the numbers rise.

Don’t let suicide be your option, your life matters, there’s other options.

Keep fighting!!

Let’s stop the stigma of mental illnesses, than people might go get help, to start healing. You are not alone, you don’t have to end it. Things can, and will get better, you just watch and see it.

Your life has meaning.

If you or someone you know, thinking about committing suicide, call this helpline. Suicide hotline

Your life matters!! You matter!!

Feelings About The Stigma Of Mental Illnesses

I hate the stigma of mental health.

Most people think that you’re faking it, like it’s all in your head, or saying you’re just lazy, or maybe even think that you’re crazy.

Why would i make all of this up? I’m not crazy. I can’t help it i can’t just make up all of these thoughts. Do you think i get up everyday wanting to be distraught? Some people are nuts.

Everyday is hard, everyday is rough, but i still push myself because i can’t, and i won’t give up. Having all these feelings, and having all these thoughts, and the people around me feels, “i just need to suck it up.”

I know right? That is messed up!

Like we all, just wake up everyday determined, to prepare all this stuff, the different thoughts, the feelings of wanting to give up, the feelings of guilt, and the feelings like everything is your fault. Major depression and anxiety, is already hard as it is, and every time i turn around people are talking negative, like mental illnesses isn’t real. Like it’s all in your head, like you can control how you feel.

Depression is nothing but darkness as it is, and family/people not believing that your really ill, not believing depression is actually real or even severe. Like i asked for all this, like i wanted this type of atmosphere. Always feeling guilty and always feeling hopeless, nobody cares and nobody ever notices. Everyday, i get on my knees and i pray. Praying and hoping, that people will understand one day.

Understand that, we’re all still humans, understand that it can even happen to you. Understand that we don’t like, and we didn’t choose, the feelings, and the emotions, mental illnesses brings us through. Understand, we’re not crazy, and we’re not insane, the only difference is, our brains just overthinks. Depression (all mental illnesses) is real, it’s definitely not fake, depression can hit you, you, you, or you any day.

Depression, and any other mental illness, can happen to anybody.

Please!! Wake up and understand.

Depression, anxiety, bipolar, panic disorder, and any other mental illness, does not discriminate. Some people think that it can’t happen to them, but believe me, it can happen to you too.

If you, or someone you know struggling with a mental illness, get help. Nothing is wrong with asking for help, i can vouch for that. I was ashamed to say i needed help, i was ashamed to say how i was feeling, i was ashamed to explain those thoughts that was in my brain, because i thought people would call me crazy, or even insane. But asking for help does not mean you’re weak or defective, depression is really an illness caused by a biochemical imbalance in the brain. You’re a very strong person because, it takes a great deal of strength to fight back, and you’re doing just that. You aren’t weak, everybody needs some kind of help, with something in some way in their lives, and everybody needs somebody, it might not be now, but as time goes by. It’s apart of life.

Do You Agree??


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Are you tired of the mental health stigma? Are you tired of being called crazy or insane? Are you tired of the negativity about mental illnesses? Are you tired of people saying it’s all in your head? Feel free to like, comment, and share. Let’s talk.

9 Things Mental Illness Has Taught Me About Life.

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At Times when we face different challenges, it’s hard to believe that good or favorable things will actually come out of those times of darkness, but there really is. In life, the most important lessons are in the places you’ll never think to look. Down below, are 9 things my mental illness has taught me about life.

1.) An Legitimate Life Is A Good Life.

Living with a mental illness has taught me the power of legitimacy. An legitimate life is a good life. Hiding the truth from others, is impossible to be pleased. Just breathe, be honest about who you are. Being honest about who you are, not worrying about the opinion of others, is a motive for happiness. Be yourself, because pretending to be someone your not does not prevent pain, it actually intensifies it.

2.) Our Mistakes And Our Struggles Improves Us.

I was about 16 or 17yrs old when I was diagnosed with major depression and anxiety. At the time, I really thought my life was over. I thought my life was really ruined. I thought it would ruin my life. But those experiences, is what has improved me, it has actually made me the woman that I am today. The struggles and the mistakes we make, is what made us today. It’s our struggles and mistakes, both present and past, that improves us.

3.) Smiles Can Most Definitely Be Deceiving.

You can’t believe that someone is really happy from on the outside appearance. One year, awhile back in my school days, I was suppose to read a poem for black history month, I was so happy about it at first, than the symptoms of depression began to come up. I felt so separate from myself. The depression became very exhausting, but I still smiled through the pain. Me, living with a mental illness, has taught me that Smiles can most definitely be deceiving and that happiness can easily be mocked up by those struggling.

4.) Normal? There Is No Such Thing As Normal.

Normal? What is normal? The way one person clarifies “normal” might be different others. Some people think those who choose to be honest are crazy, while others believe those people who live according by the rules are fruitcakes. That’s why labels are only for delivery boxes, jars, and handbags, not people. (humans) ok? Ok.

5.) The Definition Of Real Friendships. (Real Friendships!)

Living with a mental illness, people start showing their true colors, and unhappily, you start to see a lot of them prove themselves as undependable/unreliable. But thankfully, thank God, there is a silver lining. We learn the real meaning of friendships. Friends who are there whether we are laughing, crying, or being goofy. Real friends add to your life, even when your at your lowest, even when you feel like giving up. . Do not take these friends for granted.

What’s a silver lining?

Every cloud has a silver lining” it means every tough time or difficulty that causes pain, also contains a potentiality for a generous result. By seeking for any positive things (positive effects) of any problems or even a misleading circumstance, we begin to feel better, we can begin to feel more internal peace in reply to how how things stand, therefore getting back our ability to solve it if we can, or just accept it if we can’t.

6.) It Is Okay To Not Be Okay.

Almost everyday, I have to constantly remind myself , that it is okay to not be okay. Pain we endure in life is truly hard, and absolutely nothing is wrong with asking or reaching out for help when you need it. There’s no gender for depression. Depression doesn’t has no gender, race, or face.

7.) Making Plans In Life, There Is No Such Thing.

Our lives are supposed to be mapped out perfectly and we’re expected to follow a timeline right? Honestly, that kind of mindset will only set yourself up for disappointment. I had plans to go to college, and graduate in 4yrs, had plans to be doing what I love, which is being journalists, I had plans to be in my big dream house. I am 31yrs old now, and I can tell you that my life did not end up like I actually had planned, and I’m kind of grateful it didn’t. Going to a mental clinic and being diagnosed with major depression and anxiety was not on one of my list of plans to do, despite that it taught me that there is no such thing as making plans in life. Sometimes, our dreams change and so does our outlook on life. Make goals and not plans and let your experiences guide you.

8.) Being Considerate Can Save Lives.

Just about every 40 seconds there’s someone who’s committed suicide, somewhere around the world. If someone would have acted considerate and kindly, they could’ve helped get many of the individuals away from the edge. You don’t understand the impact of a action, kind, and considerate word. Being considerate and kind save lives, and caring for/about others only increases our character of life.

9.) Our Beauty Is Found In What Makes Us Different.

I’ve been taught different things living with a mental illness. I’ve also been taught that what makes you different gives you feeling. If someone told you they have a perfect life, they’re lying. There is no such thing as a perfect life, mind, or body trust me. It took me along time, to realize the power of embracing my depression and anxiety mind, that part of me that was suppose to make me feel poor, I saw that beauty is found in what makes us different, and everybody is different in their own little way.

I’ve been taught a lot of things living with a mental illness.

R. Kelly Preyed On Women/Young Teenage Women, For Decades!!!

I’m sure you all have heard the dirty tea/Sexual claims on R&B singer R. Kelly for so many years. (And those claims are still floating around)

R. Kelly has decades of misconduct and abuse on women and younger teenage girls, that he has continuously denied.

For many, many years might I add.

Robert Sylvester Kelly should’ve been locked up years ago, if you ask me!

He’s been having sexual allegations against him. I remember, all that about the r&b singer R. Kelly. How could I forget the guy who peed on a child? 😂😆🤦🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️😉

Honestly, they should’ve been stopped and listened, and did all of this, since like 1994 or 1996.

His family is catching hell from all his wrongdoing, including his children. Joann Kelly, R. Kelly’s estranged daughter who goes by the name Buku Abi, finally broke her silence about the dispute surrounding her father. She wrote a long statement on her Instagram.

Here is the link,

Poor Joann, all these careless things that R. Kelly (her father) has done, and now they’re having a hard time.

People are talking about them and their moms. His kids would go to school and kids would be teasing them. Saying things like, “Your daddy is a rapist,” or “Your daddy likes little girls.” It’s really sad that all these years he’s gotten away with abusing woman and having relations with little girls. Using his fame to score little girls, and women.

His ex wife Andrea Kelly, says she’s happy/that it makes her smile about it all coming to the light. She said, she’s happy because, it means they’re being heard about R. Kelly, and his sick, careless, predatory doings. She’s discussing everything including the docuseries surviving R Kelly that lifetime evacuated. There was so many anonymous threats because of it.

Surviving R. Kelly

I have the link below.

Andrea and R. Kelly met after she got a job as his back up dancer. She was only 19 when she met R. Kelly. In 1996, R. Kelly asked Andrea to marry him. She said, she did not know about the storm on the horizon. (The R.Kelly himself) She also mentioned that her wedding was a surprise wedding. She didn’t even know she was getting married.

As their relationship advanced, R. Kelly had applied more and more control over his wife, Andrea. She’s also been abused by R. Kelly, and she talks about it all in the link below. She mentions some of his abusive ways/behavior towards her, but there are certain things she was not willing to talk about, because of “the darkness of it.” Crying as she discuss it.

Do you believe R. Kelly did all those allegations that’s against him? Why Did it take a tv show to wake people up?!

He constantly surrounded hisself with younger girls. One interview he was asked about his sexual history and the allegations against him, and R. Kelly got up and walked out during the interview live. (Wow) Awhile back, on 1/20/2016 in another interview, R. Kelly opened up about being molested at ages 7 or 8 until he was 14, or 15. He was abused by one of his relatives.

In the interview, he was also asked his opinion on Bill Cosby. He said, “I don’t know what happened.” Also saying he’s a fan of Bill Cosby replying, “who’s not?” R. Kelly said he couldn’t give his opinion on something he had no idea of if it’s true or not. R. Kelly also said “When I look on tv and see the 70-,80-, 90 year old ladies talking about what happened when they were 17, 18, or 19, he said, “There’s something strange about it,” R. Kelly said.

What’s so strange about it? (I want to know) That link is also below.

R. Kelly’s life has been in confusion, ever since the lifetime series of Surviving R. Kelly first appeared. The docuseries looked in R. Kelly’s sexual history, which is brainteased with accusations of sexual, mental, and physical assaults. More than 50 people were interviewed, and the long list of accusations has turned the world against R. Kelly.

Artists he wrote songs for, or worked together with are avoiding him, while two cities are asking witnesses as well as victims, to come forward so that a proper investigation can be done on the celebrity (R.Kelly). His music is starting to be excluded from some radio stations, and it truly appears that, the legend is about to watch his entire legacy/fame go down the drain. Right before his very own eyes.

R. Kelly’s resources claims he’s not worried about the artists that’s cutting him off, and disowning him. He is dismissing artists such as, Lady Gaga, B2K, Celine Dion, and many more, as “phonies” who’s just desperate to look good in the public eye. 👀👀👁

On the other hand. R. Kelly is completely freaking out about Surviving R. Kelly. A come to an end and discontinue letter was sent to lifetime from R. Kelly days before they aired the series, demanding that it be postponed.

Now, Kelly is doing everything in his power to strike back at lifetime. He’s also been seeking to find dirt on one of lifetime’s executives, while also working with a legal team to dismember the content in the docuseries.

There’s the link below, if you’d like to read it.

R. Kelly accuser’s (Lisa Vanallen) daughter cries as she says moms story changed her perspective in the link below. She speaks for the first time in public, about her mom’s 10-year abusive relationship with R. Kelly. Check it out.

Lisa Vanallen’s daughter, Akeyla

Also, one of R. Kelly’s accusers says he sent a letter threatening her and her family after she spoke out. You can read the rest by clicking the link below.

R. Kelly’s Accuser, Faith Rodgers

R. Kelly wrote a threatening letter? Why? 👀👀👀👁

This been going on, been happening like decades ago. Remember?! And now, all of a sudden, everybody wants to stop playing his music, stop him from writing their music, stop his concerts, basically disown him after about 30 something years?!

What’s a threatening letter going to prove??

What do you guys think going to happen to R. Kelly?

Do you think R. Kelly should go to jail?

Do you know he’s going to jail?

It’s so sad that he was able to get away with it all these years. To his victims, so sorry you had to go through all of that bs!

Not trying to judge him, but he has always gotten caught with a younger teenage woman. He’s had so many sexual allegations against him, for years.! Don’t act like this is something new.

Remember him and the singer Aaliyah? (Rip beautiful) They actually got married. Their marriage certificate said Aaliyah was 18 but she really was 15.

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Top 10 Game Apps You Must Have On Your Phone.

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So you have a phone, but you don’t have any fun games on it? Maybe, you don’t know of any that’s interesting? Don’t you worry you are on the right blog. (Hahaha) There’s thousands probably millions of games out there and i know it can be hard to choose which games are even worth your time. You don’t know which ones are occupying or worth downloading. That’s where I come in. I have managed to write down a list of the best games down Below. Oh, and guess what? They are for both iphones and androids phones. That’s great isn’t it?! Also, these mobile games are free and very occupying. Especially…. when you’re depressed, stressed anxious, bored, and lonely. So, here’s my list, the top 10 game apps you must have on your phone.
Candy Crush Developer: King

Candy Crush is a fun and challenging game. Also, it is very addicting! My sister actually tried to take my phone from me a few times. (Haha) Yes it’s that addicting. Your goal is to clear as many rows and columns as possible in a matter of seconds. To clear the candy pieces you have to line three or more in a row. Which is done by swapping candy pieces in order to create three. It’s a good game to play and another popular one that’ll keep u occupied. It’s worth the download.

Developer: Epic games

This one popular game right here. Fortnite. Also one of my favorite games. It’s the most played game on the planet!! Most androids can get this one but if not you can play it on your computer… simple as that. Just go to where they’ll find the fortnite installer for download. Ok, so fortnite Is like other Royale games. Fortnite is a competitive shooters like 100 as they all airdrop out of a moving plane or a battle bus. (Fortnite Battle Royale). They fight to survive as the play space slowly shrinks to force people into combat. You have to find all your weapons and equipment on the map. challenging. It’s very much worth downloading.

Asphalt Airborne 8

Developer: Gameloft
Asphalt Airborne 8 is an extreme and adrenaline pumping racing game. To say this game is free your experience is actually like real live racing. It’s a very astounding game and it has 13 locations and plenty of different cars to choose from. Being a boring game is a negative. Boring will never be associated with Asphalt Airborne 8 it’s great. They app is always updated and I guarantee you’re gonna get enjoyment out of this game. Feels so real. Look so real. It’s so worth the download.

Super Mario RunDeveloper: Nintendo Co, Ltd

Super Mario Run is a automatic running game and it’s also another popular and fun game. All you doing is waiting on the character to move and tap to jump. If you want to jump higher tap and hold the screen. Reverse from the wall and then jump. Just tap on the screen when Mario touch the wall. There’s a lot of obstacles that will Try To Prevent you from finishing the levels. Just tap on the screen to jump over the obstacles. You have to collect coins also actually this is an important part of the game and it can be hard to find. There’s also pink coins in some levels, that unlock harder to catch other purple coins in the level. There’s yellow coins to collect too. Make sure to use the action boxes. You have to try to stay live and watch out for obstacles. It’s a good/fun game. The only thing about this app is it let’s you play so many levels and you pay to unlock the others. One time payment though. Estimate price: $9.99 But it’s worth it. It’s also worth the download.

Uno & FriendsDeveloper: Mattel163 Limited

Uno & Friends is also popular. You can either play with friends or other players. The person that’s on the left next to the dealer goes first. Next player must match a card with the card that’s on the card pile, either by color, number, or symbol. It’s a really fun game to play. It’s amazing that they came up with the uno app and it’s also free to download. Give it a try. It keeps you occupied. Really astonishing. It’s worth the download now. So what are you waiting for? Lol 😂🤣 it’s worth it.

Subway Surfers Developer: Kiloo

Subway Surfers Is one of the most popular apps out here globally. To play you just simple steer your character with swipes to avoid different obstacles and collect the coins and powerups. Swipe left to go left and swipe right to go to the right. You swipe down to duck. It’s a standard unlimited runner and a good balance of fun and challenges. I would recommend this game to anyone. (I already have) hahaha. You won’t regret downloading this one.

Pet Rescue SagaDeveloper: Kiloo

Pet Rescue Saga. This app is omg so adorable! It’s also for androids and iphones. Pet rescue saga you worry about your pets first. On most of the levels you play Your number one intention should be saving your pets. You have to rescue all the little cute pets. And the music that play’s is so relaxing. This game is just as addicting as candy crush. Trust me. Astonishing! This game is also worth downloading.

RobloxDeveloper: Roblox Corporation

Popular popular game. Roblox. You can download it for free. If you love playing games than this the app for you. Roblox has so many games to choose from. Most of the games are advanced gameplay. Roblox also let u play games in a excellent multiplayer environment. On roblox you Can even Have a job. There’s this pizza place, and you choose to be either a delivery person or cook. (Haha) so fun though. If you download this game, I promise you you won’t regret it. It’s also for androids and iPhones.

Pokémon GoDeveloper: Niantic, Inc

Wow I never would’ve thought that they would come out with Pokémon. (Haha) It’s also another fun and occupying game. It’s another popular app. Pokémon Go is For androids and iphones. You can play on the go with Pokémon’s mobile app. You have to pick which Pokémon you want to catch. Once you catch the Pokémon the others disappear. Finding Pokémon isn’t easy you’ll have to go outside and look for more Pokémon’s. You’ll have to look at parks and shopping centers. Where the Pokémon’s spawn. This app is also free. Please believe me it’s worth downloading.

Clash Royale 👑 Developer: Supercell

Clash Royale. It’s a card game and it’s a very famous game. Clash Royale 👑 is also for androids and iphones. It’s another free app to download. You probably saying “Are you sure?” Yes I’m sure. I’m positively sure. Clash Royale is a video game and it combines different elements from collectible games, tower defense, and multiplayer online battle arena. The intention of this game is to kill the opponent’s king tower, which can only be hurt when all of their troops and buildings are not on the field. As long as there isn’t a different building on the field building targeting troops can directly target the King tower. It’s really a fun app. And yes, it’s worth downloading. Try it out and see.

Okay you guys so that’s the (My) top 10 game apps you must have on your android or iphone. Also, all of my favorites lol 😂🤣. They are all worth downloading on your phone. All of these games are amazing and addicting. But occupying. And I promising you that you would enjoy all of these apps. Either one. I Suffer with Anxiety and Major Depression and when I’m depressed or anxious, and I play any one of these games it takes my mind off of whatever I was depressed about. That’s why I say they are all very occupying. Okay you guys please share, like, and comment on my post. Any of them. That’s what im here for. Tell me what you think. And if you like it, Share it, reblog it, Comment on it, and like it. I will do the same of course. 🥰😘 Be back later my loves. 😘😘

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