It’s Been Awhile… But I’m Still Alive

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Hello everyone!! I know it’s been awhile, but I had to take care of me. It got to a point to where I lost so much weight, and I’m already a petite woman. My weight has been going up and down for some time now. My normal weight would be 114 and I had gone down to as low as 90 pounds. Oh my God right?! I’m not perfect at all, and i am also still working on me, and I’m doing so much better now. I am now at 104 pounds, and i plan to keep it this way. Sometimes I get so stressed and depressed to where I won’t eat, it’s not purposely, but if you deal with major depression, or any other mental illness you’ll understand. My doctors are so caring, it could be after business hours and she/or he would call me just to make sure i’m okay, or just to let me know that someone actually cares. They would call just to make sure I ate something that day, even if it’s eating on crackers, or a sandwich, but making sure I drink plenty fluids, especially water. I have great doctors!! They’ll call amd check up on me, motivate me, while also helping me. 

While doing all that, they also reminded me that my son Jayden needs his mother, also he needs his mother to be strong! He needs his mother to be healthy! I can’t be strong or healthy not eating or drinking anything. Like I said, it’s not purposely, but after 2/14/2019 I made a commitment to myself, no matter how depressed or stressed I may get I will make myself eat and drink something, I can’t and won’t keep doing this to myself. 

I decided that my health is way more important. Major depressive disorder and anxiety isn’t easy at all, or any other mental illness, and being around negative people, isn’t healthy. I stay in a house with 6 adults and 5 kids and I only have 1 child, there’s no peace, no quiet, no privacy, and last but not least, no understanding. My mental illness is crazy to them.

To them, my depression isn’t serious!! I can just snap out of it to them. Which we all know, it doesn’t work like that! We all wish that it would and could though right??! Depression is real! Depression can also be very severe. My depression so serious to where my doctor’s are trying to sign me up for disability. But to my family it’s not.

“You have no reason to be depressed,” or “I’ve had depression but it went right away.” This is what I hear all the time. Oh yeah and, “You choose to be this way.” Really?! Who would choose to be sad everyday? Who would choose to have a fight everyday with their mind? Who would choose to have all those different emotions and feelings everyday? Who would choose to just wake up in despair everyday? Who would choose not to eat on purpose?

Being around all that would really take a toll on you. Lately I’ve been in good spirit, and I’m not letting no one get to me anymore. I have to do better for my son and I, and that I am doing. I got a call for a 2 bedroom apartment, and I thank God for it. That’ll be a great start for my son and I, and also a peace of mind.

I’m not complaining but staying in a crowded house, plus having a mental illness, hearing nothing but negativity, no understanding about your mental illness, no peace and quiet, and people saying “you’re crazy” or you chose to be that way,” is stressful. Also, it’s not good for your health or your mental health.

This is why I understand those who struggle alone, and have no one to lean on. Some people are just careless, and ignorant. They sound just the way they talk… Ignorant.

But you are not alone, and I’m one good example. There’s plenty other people struggling but won’t come out with it because of the negativity and ignorance people say. Mainly family members.

Getting help and knowing you need help is just showing how strong you are, and that you care enough to get help and knowing what people say doesn’t matter!!

P.s sorry everyone for the long long absence to all my followers… I’m doing great, I’m much better than ever and eating everyday, and taking my medicine everyday how I am supposed too. πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ˜˜πŸ˜˜ I hope each and everyone of you have a great and blessed day/week.

Everyday Battles Of Depression Poem By Me Expressive Jackie

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Lessons Depression Teaches You.

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Are you learning from your problems?

People that are able to learn from their problems, do great in their future, i’ve heard. It doesn’t matter whether you have an episode – Major Depressive Disorder, clinical depression, or anxiety or any other depression or type of anxiety it’s very important to learn a lesson from that problem. Down below are some your depression may be able to teach you.

Hard Work Isn’t More Important Than Sleep.

One aspect of depression is changes in sleep. You might sleep more than you usually do, or you might sleep less. Not getting enough sleep can actually put you at risk to develop or worsen your depression. Chronically getting too little sleep is one risk factor for episodes of depression and bipolar disorder. If you’re losing sleep in order to work more or longer, that loss of sleep may impair your judgement and eventually undermine the progress you are making in your work.

Take Good care of yourself.

Just taking good care of yourself won’t automatically stop depression, but part of the process of recovering from depression is learning to take better care of yourself. Depression teaches you the importance of good preventive self care.

Taking better care of yourself isn’t selfish.

In order to do for others, you have to first take care of yourself. That’s another lesson depression teaches. Taking care of yourself will show you that it’s not the same thing as being selfish. Make taking care of yourself your first priority, to reduce the risks of future episodes of depression.

Things can’t make you happy.

It’s real easy to misstep into the deception of thinking that if you had more, bigger, and a lot prettier things, that that’ll make you happy. Depression does not care what kind of things you have. Depression does not care if you have more stuff. Having depression, teaches you that material things aren’t far more important than relationships and the experiences.

Measure your accomplishments rather than mistakes.

Some people have had many accomplishments. Everyone who tries has some things that don’t work out for them the way it was planned. If you only keep total of your mistakes, you’ll run up a very large total. Looking at only your faults, can be very disappointing. Make sure you always give yourself credit for things you have accomplished. Most likely you have accomplished more things than you are aware of. Depression likes to unclear your view of the positive in life.

Things you tell yourself comes to be true.

Everyone knows that words are very very powerful. Things you tell yourself be liable to come true. Tell yourself you can’t and you won’t be able to. Tell yourself that somehow, some way, you going to find a way to get past this and things are going to get better.

Have you learned anything from your problems?

Sit back and reflect on what your personal problems has taught you. Have your personal problems made you stronger? Or have you just ignored all the lessons/messages that your problems were trying to teach you?

Think about that and if you ignore the messages that your problems/depression tried teaching you, pay attention from now on. Because depression can be a lesson, in disguise. Be wise!

Those are some lessons that depression teaches you from me. If you like it, please like, follow, and feel free to leave any comments that you may have. Thanks to all my followers, you are all amazing πŸ˜‰ I have plenty more to come. Subscribe subscribe and I hope each and everyone of you has a blessed and great day today. Remember to smile πŸ˜€πŸ˜˜

6 Foods That Help Reduce Anxiety Symptoms

Anxiety Can Be A Common Problem For Many Many People Including Myself.

It’s A Disorder Characterized By Constant Worry, Nervousness, And Can Mean Poor Brain Health. Most Times Medications Can Help Or Is Required For Treatments.

Besides Medications There Are Many Different Strategies You Can Try To Help Reduce Anxiety Symptoms. From Deep Breathing, Meditating, And Even Exercising.

Additionally, There Are Some Foods You Can Eat That May Help Lower The Severe Symptoms. Due To Their Brain Boosting Properties.

Down Below Are 6 ScienceBacked Foods And Beverages That May Provide Some Anxiety Relief.

1. Salmon

Salmon May Be Beneficial For Reducing Anxiety.

Salmon Does Contains Nutrients That Promote Brain Health, Including Vitamin D And The Omega 3 Fatty Acids Acidseicosapentaenoic Acid (EPA) And Docosahexaenoic Acid. (DHA) (1, 2, 3, 4).

EPA And DHA May Help In Regulating Neurotransmitters Dopamine And Serotonin, That Can Have Calming And Relaxing Effects.

Studies Show That These Fatty Acids Can Even Reduce Inflammation And Prevent Brain Cell Dysfunction That Can Lead To The Development Of Mental Disorders Like Anxiety.

Consuming Enough Amounts Of EPA And DHA Can Also Promote Your Brain’s Ability To Be Able To Get Used To Changes, Allowing You To Better Handle Stressors That May Trigger Anxiety Symptoms.

Also, Vitamin D Has Been Studied For The Positive Effects/Results It May Have On Improving Levels Calming Neurotransmitters.

There’s Even A Few Amounts/Servings Of Salmon A Week That Can Be Enough To Promote Anxiety Relief.

There’s A Study That Shows Men That Ate Atlantic Salmon 3 Times A Week And For 5 Months Reported Less Anxiety Than The Ones That Eat Beef, Pork, Or Chicken. On Top Of That They Had Improved AnxietyRelated Symptoms, Such As Heart Rate And Heart Rate Variability.

2. Chamomile

Chamomile Is An Herb That May Help Reduce Anxiety.

Chamomile Contains Really High Amounts Of Antioxidants Proven To Reduce Inflammation, Which Might Decrease The Risk Of Anxiety.

There Are Many Studies That Have Examined The Interconnection Between Chamomile And Anxiety Relief.

They Have Also Found That Those Diagnosed With Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) Experienced A Significantly Greater Reduction In Symptoms After Ingesting Chamomile Abstraction , Compared To Those Who Did Not.

There’s Also Another Study That Shows The Exact Same Results, As The Ones Who Abstracted Chamomile Extract For 8 Weeks Saw Reduced Symptoms Of Anxiety And Depression. Most Studies Have Been Conducted On Chamomile Extract. More Research Is Much Necessary, To Evaluate The Anti-Anxiety Effects Of Chamomile Tea, Which Is More Commonly Consumed.

3. Turmeric

Turmeric Is A Spice That Consist Of Curcumin. A Compound Studied For It’s Role In Promoting Brain Health And Keeping Anxiety Disorder From Happening.

Many Different Studies Suggest That Curcumin May Boost The Omega 3 Fatty Acids DHA In The Brain By Helping Your Body Synthesize It More Efficiently.

Curcumin Also Have A Very Powerful Antioxidant And Anti-Inflammatory Properties That Has Also Been Shown To Prevent Damage To Brain Cells. More Research Is Really Needed But Turmeric Is Definitely Worth A Try. If You Have Anxiety Give It A Try. It Won’t Hurt.

4. Yogurt

If You Suffer From Anxiety Adding Yogurt To The Menu Is Wonderful To Include.

The Probiotics Or Even The Healthy Bacteria Found In Some Types Of Yogurt Can Improve Your Well-Beings. Yes, Including Mental Health. Studies Have Shown That Probiotic Foods Like Yogurt Can Promote Mental Health And Even Brain Function By Preventing Free Radicals And Neurotoxins That Can Damage Nerve Tissues In The Brain And Lead To Anxiety.

In One Study It Shows That Anxious People Comsumed Probiotics Yogurt On A Daily Basis Were Able To Deal With Anxiety And Stress Than Those That Consumed Yogurt Without Probiotics.

Another Study Found That Women That Consumed 4.4 Ounces (125 Grams) Of Yogurt Daily And Twice A Day For About 4 Weeks Had Noticed Better Functioning Of The Brain Divisions That Control Emotion And Even Sensation. Which Can Be Affiliated With Lower Anxiety Levels.

There Are More Studies That Need To Be Done To Confirm The Effects That Yogurt May Have On Reducing Anxiety. Not All Yogurts Have Probiotics In Them. Get A Yogurt That Has Live Active Cultures Listed As An Ingredient.

5. Dark Chocolate

Dark Chocolate Can Really Help With Anxiety? Why Yes! Chocolate Has A High Tryptophan Content, That The Body Used To Turn Into Mood- Enhancing Neurotransmitters Such As Serotonin In The Brain. Dark Chocolate Is Also A Good Source Of Magnesium. Eating A Nice Good Diet With Enough Magnesium In It Or Taking Supplements Might Reduce Symptoms Of Depression. When You Choosing Dark Chocolate, Shoot For 70 Percent Or More. Dark Chocolate Does Still Contains Added Fats And Sugars So Make Sure It’s Tiny Portions 1 To 3 Grams Is Suitable.

6. Green Tea

Green Tea Is A Real Good Source Of L- Theanine. L- Theanine Normally Found In Green Tea Provides Strong Calming Effects And It Can Be Used To Fight Stress And Anxiety. Green Tea Comes With Theanine, An Amino Acid That Really Helps Reduce Stress And It Relaxes Your Mind, Body, And Soul. Instead Of A Bottle Of Water Try A Green Tea Instead. For Dinner Or Even Lunch. There’s Also L- Theanine Supplements Or Even The Green Tea Extract. Some Of You Might Not Like The Taste Of Green Tea. Like Me Haha So I Tried L- Theanine Foods Like:

Broccoli

Nuts

Whole Grain

Those Are My 6 Foods That Help With Reducing Anxiety Symptoms. I Hope Everyone Like, Comment, And Share.

Depression Changes Everything

She Was Once So Happy Than All Of A Sudden She Was Snappy. Never Smiling She Was Always Frowning. These Emotions Inside Always Made Her Cry. Her Wanting To Tell What She Feels Within But She Know No One Will Listen. She Feels Stuck In This Place Full Of Empty Space. Everyone Saying It’s Gonna Be Okay But They Aren’t The Ones Living With It Everyday. She Can’t Help What She Feels. She Don’t Even Feel Real. She Used To Love To Do Fun Things. Now, She Just Sits Around Doing Nothing. She Always Has These Dark Emotions. And They Are Even Darker When No Notice. She Smiles On The Outside To Hide Her Pain Knowing Inside Her Emotions Are Driving Her Insane. She Have So Many Aches And Pains. She Tries To Maintain. She Feels Like She Has Nothing, Nothing To Gain.

Good Morning Everyone! I Hope Each And Everyone Of You Have A Great Day. I Hope Everyone Enjoy Their Day. I Also Hope You All Like My Poem I Wrote. Depression Can Make You Feel So Down. I Know Some Of You Understand Where I’m Coming From. I Am Not Ashamed! Depression Has No Name. βœŠπŸΎπŸ’―πŸ˜˜πŸ₯° And You Shouldn’t Either My Loves. 😘😘 Remember To Follow My Blog, Like, Comment And Even Share. My Morning Is Going Good. I Am Up And About Handling Some Business. Talk To You Guys Later(Kisses) Thanks For All The Likes And Follows. It Means A lot To Me. If I Can Get Just One Person To Hear Me I’m Proud About That. Talk To You All Later. Remember To Smile Even If You Feel Down. Don’t Let That Depression Get You Down! Yeah Depression Changes Your Mood And How You Think. Distract Those Thoughts Don’t Let It Win.

Life With Depression…

Life Can Be So Unfair. Especially When It Seems Like Nobody Cares. I Try To Do What’s Right But It’s Always A Fight. People Think They Are So Perfect While Making You Feel So Unworthy. At Times I Feel So Alone. Not Knowing Which Way To Go. Wanting To Be Well But I Just Can’t Get There. Knowing People Love You But You Don’t Feel Like They Do. Because It Seems They Don’t Care What You Going Through. Always Feeling Hopeless And Nobody Even Notice.

You Try To Feel Like Yourself But Your Mind Say Something Else. Feeling Nothing But Darkness Emotions Feeling So Broken. You Feel Nothing But Guilt And Wilt. Feeling Sad And Lonely Not Knowing Why You Just Feel Like Everyone Disowned Me. Always Feeling Lifeless But You Keep Going Cause You Have To Fight This. Nobody Understands How You Feel.

Some Think It’s Not Real. But That’s a Lie Depression Can Kill. I Hate When Someone Says “Suck It Up” As If It’s A Cup Of Water. I Wish It Was That Easy Because I’ve Had Enough. Each And Everyday Is Rough. Feeling Like Your Not Enough.

If You Only Knew

If You Only Knew The Things I Go Through. Everyday Is A Fight With Your Mind. And At Times You Can Feel Like Your Losing Your Mind. Crying, Not Knowing Which Way To Go. If You Only Knew The Places My Mind Go. Feeling Lost And Confused. Having The Friends To Talk Too. No Family There At Times I Feel Like Nobody Cares. If You Only Knew How These Emotions Take Over. If You Only Knew How Sometimes These Feelings Take Over. Laying Around All Day Sad And Emotional. If Only You Knew These Feelings I Go Through. If You Only Knew I’m Up Every Night. Up Every Night With No Sleep In Sight. If You Only Knew Pains And Aches I Go Through. If You Only Knew Depression Takes A Toll On You.

If Only You Knew How My Mind Race. If Only You Knew These Battles I Face. If Only You Knew The Struggle. If Only You Knew All These Thoughts I Juggle. If Only You Knew How Waking Up In The Mornings Is Hard. If Only You Knew Depression Is Rough.

Tell Depression…..

Good Morning Everyone! I Hope You All Are Having A Great And Blessed Morning And I Hope Everyone Enjoy Their Day. Me, I Am Having A Great Morning My Son Is At School So I’m Just Doing My Motherly Duties. Washing Clothes And Folding Them. I Also Hope You All Like This Short Poem And Feel Free To Comment And Share. Depression Is Real. πŸ‘ŒπŸΎβœŠπŸΎβœ…

Tell Depression Go To Hell. Everyday It Has You Feeling Down And Nobody’s Around. Sitting In The Dark With All Those Negative Thoughts. Feeling Tired And Restless All The Time. Tell That Depression You Are Not Gonna Tear Me Down. At Times It Gets Hard. But Me I Just Give It To God. Depression Can Get The Best Of You. But Tell That Depression It Can’t Have You. Depression Can Make You Feel So Down. When It Do That, Tell That Depression You Not Having That. Depression Takes A Toll On You. But Tell That Depression You Still Gonna Go Do What You Have To Do. Depression Than Come Anxiety. Having So Many Feelings Up Inside Of You. Having Depression You Always Feeling Restless. Depression Can Even Have You Weightless. But Tell That Depression You Can’t Take It. I’m Gonna Make It. I’m Gonna Be Okay!! Depression I’m Still Going On With My Day.

Tell Depression You Won’t Win. I’m Fighting Til The End. Tell Depression You Give Me All Those Emotions But I Will Still Remain Focus. Depression You Will Not Get The Best Of Me. You See I Have A Son That Loves Me. I Love My Son He Loves I’m Beating This Depression Just Watch And See!

Depression 2

Depression Can Hit You. You Have No Ideal. Depression Is Real. Depression Can Be A Big Deal.

Depression Can Happen To Anybody. Depression Can Happen At Any Hour. Depression Can Have You Feeling Out Your Body.

Depression Can Have You Friends With Nobody. Depression Can Have You With So Many Emotions. Depression Can Have You Always Feeling Hopeless.

Depression Can Make You So Sad. Depression Can Have You Always Feeling Bad.

Depression Takes The Life Out Of You. Depression Always Have You Feeling Blue.

Depression Can Have You Not Wanting To Get Up In The Morning. Depression Can Sometimes Make You Hungry.

Depression is Not All I’m Your Head. If Depression Was We Wouldn’t At All Choose It.

Depression Isn’t Like A Game. Depression Isn’t Nowhere Near The Same.

Depression Is Really Serious. Depression Can Have You Delirious.

Depression Isn’t At All Easy. Depression Can Be Treated.

Depression Can Make You Feel As If Your Stuck In A Hole. Depression Can Make You Feel As If You Have No Soul.

Depression Is Fighting With Your Mind. Depression Can Happen At Anytime.

Depression Have You Feeling Down. Depression Just Have You Laying Around.

Depression Is Real!!! Depression Can Be Treated Don’t Be Ashamed Because I Deal With It.