Feelings And Your Mental Health Is Important

Feelings And Your Mental Health Is Important

Feelings and mental health is important because it’s a essential part of your life and impacts your thoughts, behaviors, and your emotions… It plays an important part in the health of your relationships and allows you to adapt to changes in your life and cope with difficulties.

Good evening everyone, I hope you all are having a great day Sunday.

If you are feeling down or you don’t feel motivated today I am here to help that. I am going to help you revalue yourself. I am going to help you love yourself again. I’m going to help you care for you.

Most times, those of us with a mental illness, don’t feel pretty, or we don’t feel worthy, or we don’t feel love, or loved. But that stops now! No negative at all, all positive vibes.

You can use some of these tips to rebalance yourself, or to even keep balance.

Value yourself:

Treat yourself kindness and respect. Avoid self-criticism, and make time for some of your favorite hobbies, your favorite projects, or even take some dance classes. How you think about yourself can have a big effect on how you feel. Practice words that promotes feelings of self worth, like personal power.

Take good care of your body:

Taking care of yourself physically, can actually improve your mental health. Be sure that you eat nutritious foods, and remember to always drink plenty of water. One other thing, which helps decrease depression and anxiety, is exercising, it also improves your moods. Also, make sure you get as much sleep as you can, enough sleep. Lack of sleep contributes to a very high rate of depression. Mainly in college students.

Give yourself:

Help someone who may be in need of help. Volunteer your time and energy to help the needy. You’ll feel so good about doing something tangible for someone. It’s also a good way to meet new people.

Surround yourself around positive people:

Some people have stronger family support than others, but that’s okay because there are activities to get out and meet new people. Those with the strong support system, social connections are generally healthier than those who lack support. But there are support groups, you can meet new people at a club. Make plans with supportive people, it can be family members, or close friends. Surround yourself around people who care for you, people who got your back, people who are there to pick up your slack. Not just anyone.

Learn how to do deal with stress:

Whether you like it or not, stress is actually apart of life. There are ways to practice good coping skills: try Tai chi, or take a natural walk, or try writing in your journal as a stress reducer. Remember to smile, and see the humor in life. Many research shows that laughter is good and can boost your immune system, relax your body, ease pain and reduce stress.

Quiet your mind:

You can meditating, mindfulness, or even prayer. Relaxation exercises and prayer can improve your state of mind, and outlook on life. Meditation may help you feel more calm, and it would enhance the effects of therapy. There’s many resources on personal well-being.

Get help when you need it:

Honestly seeking help is a sign of strength— not weakness! If you get the appropriate care, and help, you can recover from mental illness, and addiction, and live a very rewarding life.

Practice forgiveness:

If it’s forgiving that person who cut u off completely, forgive them. Those who forgive have better mental health, and be more satisfied with their life.

Feeling stressed? Than smile:

It might not be the easiest thing to do, but smiling can keep you calm, as well as help your heart rate.

Do something with family and/or your friends:

Have a bbq or maybe a little cook out, play games in the backyard. Go to the park, take a walk and talk. Spending time with friends, or family, people are more likely to be happy.

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Ways To Love Yourself, Love Yourself First

Ways To Love Yourself, Love Yourself First

Being kind to yourself actually helps you to shake back, live healthier, and to stay on the right track.

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Before I start I want you guys to do something before reading this. Look at yourself in the mirror and recite the following about 3 times: Your name, I LOVE YOU. Mean what you say while saying it. Don’t pay attention to anything else. Now anwer this? How did you feel? What feelings occured? Can you feel the words I love you? Some people are drived to tears while performing this simple, but very powerful assignment. Let’s really be honest, In order to love someone else you have to love yourself first. When you love yourself first, life will most defintely take care of the rest. If you cannot love yourself how can you embrace the love of someone else? You are likely to feel undeserving, while yearning for love and closeness of another person. That’s where hostilities occur.

When you love yourself, life takes care of the details because everything else is really minor compared to the faith in of one’s self. Nothing or no one can tear you down.

Self love is most definitely one of the best things you can do for yourself, trust and believe me when I say this, and some may not think so. Everyone has their very own opinion. But I say that self love is important, being in love with yourself gives you self-confidence, self worth and it will actually make you feel more positive. Self love defined as ”love of self’ or regard for one’s own happiness or advantage” has both been conceptualized as a moral flaw or as a basic human necessity.

When you hold yourself really high in esteem and actually know you are fulfilling your purpose in life, you tend to have more and more enjoyment and a more positive attitude towards your future.

Self-love can really motivate you to adopt healthy habits and to take care of your physical self. You may notice less anxiety and depression and you may notice that you’re more optimism. Self love is the best and it is indeed a better recovery from stress. Self-compassion is a way of relating to yourself that doesn’t involve harsh judging or even punishing yourself for every mistake you make, or every time someone may do better than you.

Self-compassion involves you treating yourself with the same kindness or concern and support that you would to a real true friend.

At times, when faced with difficult struggles, or even confronting personal mistakes, failures, and inadequacies, self-compassion responds with kindness rather than that very harsh self- judgement, recognizing that imperfection is part of the shared human experience.

Forgive yourself and love yourself. Always be true to yourself. You might not believe it, but how you treat yourself sets the principle for how others will treat you. Self-acceptance is the starting point to living a complete life when you show up with your complete self. Admittedly, there are times when you don’t feel at all loveable. It is normal and we’ve all experienced those moments. The honest truth. It starts and ends with YOU.

Your real personality is the most well built/powerful commitment you make to yourself. Your story of unworthiness is a lie made-up from others and increased over time, even though this isn’t really who you are. It is a constant statement and a developed description.

Never feed those doubts, positive or negative because you know what you give life to. Do not let your problems overcome you, use them to strengthen your real power. Work on being in love with the person you see in the mirror who has been through so much but is still standing tall. Stop caring about how you look, because true love from others, they won’t care about your skin tone, hairstyle, or weight.

In order to truly love ourselves, we can not let the way we look define our personal worth. It can’t be our only “calling card” for love, sex, or a relationship. It can’t be what determines our worthiness of joyfulness or family or a promotion at your job. Take a moment to think about it: the people that know and love us the most really could careless about our weight skintone or hairstyle or hair color. Yes the society we live in nowadays is focused, and obsessed with beauty.

Most of us are raised to admire beautiful people, such as successful actors, and models. Worrying about how Beyoncé look, or how thick and beautiful Nicki Minaj is It is what it is. But you are somebody and you are beautiful, don’t those with money and fame fool you. It ain’t all goody goody, trust and believe me.

Win yourself over and know that you’re an absolute 100% drop dead gorgeous catch, so don’t you even dare to treat yourself otherwise. Of course you may need to sometimes remind yourself ,and surprise yourself. Amaze yourself over and over with your musing ways. Don’t compare yourself, life is not a race so stop competing.

Self-love is actually a big journey. It definitely takes a lot of dedication, devotion, and a lot of practice. be determined to love yourself each and every day and you just watch how your best self is blossoming, and your greatest life unfolds. Think about how you really treat yourself on a daily basis as if you were another person, or dating yourself, in a relationship with you. Are you actually good to yourself? Is your mind good to your body, and soul? In my own spiritual journey, I notice at times we all:

  • *Beat our self up with harsh selftalk
    • We set ourselves up for failure with unrealistic beliefs.
  • Strip ourselves of things we deserve through self-sabotaging behaviors

Stop telling yourself you’re not worth it, and tell yourself you are worth it, and you deserve it. Stop beating yourself up. Love yourself first, and everything else will fall into place. I’m a living witness to this.

Loving yourself first isn’t selfish at all

Practice gratitude and aim true, write down 6 things that makes you smile, and things you’re grateful for. Be the real you, be the best version of you. Don’t just exist, live!! Find your purpose in life. Than you can share them with the world, if you want too. Listen to your body, take time to give your soul and heart happiness. Remember to always trust your intuition, it’ll never ever, ever, let you down. Appreciate every moment, and every time that we have on this beautiful earth.

Always be kind to others, and expect the unexpected. Be open, and be true to change. Always admit when you’re wrong, because nobody on this earth is perfect. Trust in yourself and know that anything is possible. Know that anything you put your mind to can be achieved. Straight facts. Always remember you are stronger than you think, and what others think about you, is none of our concern, or none of our business. Everyday that you wake up choose happiness, and know that no one is in charge of your happiness except you. Never be ashamed to ask for help, because the strongest people know when they need help, and the strongest ask for help.

Smile at that stranger everyday, because you never know, just by that moment, how much you made their day. Be careful, and be mindful, of who you open up to, because there’s not many that actually care, and majority just be curious. Now this is a fact, if someone wants to be in your life, trust and believe me, they’ll make they way towards you, they’ll make that time for you. Really though. Don’t worry about the details. Take time to find yourself, and when you find yourself, be that. It’s just that simple.

We don’t meet people just to meet people, trust and believe me, you met them all for a reason. It wasn’t accidental. You all crossed paths for a reason. Step out on faith at least this once in your life and live life with no regrets, and know that it is okay, to not have it all figured out yet. Know that you don’t have to always be strong all the time cry if you have to cry, give yourself time for everything to unfold. Don’t set yourself up for disaster, trying to please everybody. Real love requires inner work. First we must be happy with ourselves, be happy in ourselves, come to know ourselves, and to accept ourselves, and love ourselves. We have to find peace of mind, find our passion and our purpose.

Know that actions speak louder than words. Trust that(your) inner wisdom. Make sure to live the life you love. Some people wait all the way until Friday, all year for summertime, all life for happiness. Don’t you let that happen to you. Everyday, make a promise to fall in love with yourself. Practice self-love on a daily basis. It is vital.

Remember that you don’t have to, and you will not, put up with someone who is careless with your heart. And you don’t be careless with someone else’s heart. What you don’t want done to you, you shouldn’t do it to others. Very simple.

Always surround yourself with people who support you and inspire you. And know that in this moment, right now, you are exactly where you’re supposed to be.

Love yourself first, and everything will fall right in place afterwards.

Smile…. Beautiful!!!

Mental Health: Overcoming The Stigma About Mental Illness

Mental Health: Overcoming The Stigma About Mental Illness

Flawed beliefs about mental illness can cause significant problems. There are different things you can do about the stigma. You can learn about what you can do about the stigma about mental illnesses.

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Stigma is when people view you in a very negative way because you have this thing called mental illness. It is very common nowadays for people with mental illnesses to be looked at with negative attitudes and beliefs. It’s crazy!

The stigma about mental illnesses, can lead to discrimination. Discrimination can be very direct and obvious, such as someone, or people making negative comments about your mental illness and treatment. Or maybe it can be unexpected or subtle, such as someone keeping away from you because the person may assume you’re unstable, dangerous, or crazy due to your mental illness. Sometimes, you may even judge yourself.

Some of the harmful results of stigma can include:

Unwilling to seek help or to seek treatment

Insufficiency of understanding by friends, family, workers, or others

Trouble finding housing, fewer opportunities for work, or school

Harassment, or physical violence

Insurance that doesn’t fully cover your mental health treatment

The belief that you will never succeed at certain challenges or that you can’t make better your situation

There are ways that you can cope, and deal with the stigma.

Here are some ways you can deal with the stigma:

  • Get treatment. You May be unwilling to actually admit that you need treatment. Do not let that fear of being labeled with a mental illness stop you from seeking help. Getting treatment can actually give you relief by recognizing what’s wrong and decreasing symptoms that intervene with your personal life or even your work.
  • Don’t let the stigma about mental illnesses create shame, or self doubt. Stigma does not just come from others. You may actually think by mistake that your condition is a sign of weakness, and that you’re able, or should be able to control it, without help. Getting counseling, and actually educating yourself on your mental illness, and connecting with different people who have mental illness, can really help you overcome destructive self-judgement.
  • Do not isolate yourself from others. If you have a mental illness, you may be unwilling to tell others about it. Family or friends can offer you support if they know about your mental illness. Make sure it’s people you trust, but reach out to people for the compassion, understanding, and support that you need.
  • Don’t equate yourself with your mental illness. You are not your illness Don’t say “I’m bipolar,” say “I have bipolar disorder.” There’s a difference.
  • Speak out and about the stigma. It can really help introduce courage in others that’s facing the same challenges, while also educating the public about mental illnesses.

Don’t give up! Keep fighting! Keep pushing! And get the help that you need! You can do it! Face mental illnesses!

I’m owning my life and my story and I refuse to allow people to control how I feel about myself or how I view myself. — Face Depression


If you’re dealing with a mental illness get the help that you need. Don’t be ashamed about it because no one is perfect. We all need help at some point in our lives. And if you hear someone talking negative stigma about mental illnesses, just tell them they wouldn’t make fun of someone with cancer.

Dealing With A Mental Illness? Embarrassed?Check Out My Blog… Face Depression

Dealing With A Mental Illness? Embarrassed?Check Out My Blog… Face Depression

Mental Illnesses are real and some can be very severe. Without getting help you won’t be able to heal. You won’t be able to get your life back in order. The first step is getting help, the second step is knowing about your health, your sickness and medications that’s going to actually help.

You are not alone

Getting or needing help does not mean that you are weak. Don’t listen to that foolishness. You are human, you are strong! Hell anybody dealing with a mental illness are the strongest people.

I really hate all the stigma that surrounds Mental Illnesses, because of it, people are ashamed or embarrassed to really admit that they’re dealing with a sickness. When mental illnesses are really the same as any other illness.

Mental health affects millions of people in America. It is really really time to start talking about it. Stop hiding it! Be open about it! Not getting help will just drive the hell out of you. Don’t listen to what others say to you, don’t listen to what others may think about you, get the help that you need so that you can breathe, and be the best you that you can be.

It’ll set your mind free, you won’t have to worry about your mind racing. You’ll be more calm, you’ll be able to think and get things done. You won’t have to worry about all those emotions, because getting the help that you need makes you more focused.

Getting the help that you need, you’ll finally be able to breathe, you’ll be able to live!

Always remember you are not alone, you are strong, and getting the help that you need just means you’re even stronger!!

You can live a great life with a mental illness as long as you take care of yourself, take your medications, and keep up with all your appointments.

Talk to your family doctor or therapist… You got this!! Don’t give up and keep fighting, don’t let depression or anxiety, take over your life. Face it! Fight it! Treat it! Beat it!

New Blog Name New Blog Change… Face Depression

New Blog Name New Blog Change… Face Depression

You are not alone. Together we can prove all the stigma around mental illnesses wrong!!!

Good afternoon everyone!! I hope you all are having a great and blessed day. I hope you all enjoyed your Labor Day. My day is going good so far I can’t complain. My son Jayden keeps me going even when I feel I don’t have the energy. School is back in session for the kids, and man did the summer go by quick huh?! Jayden goes to a better school that is close to his dad’s house, because the schools located by me are horrible. Nowadays the teachers just doesn’t care to actually teach like they use too. So as I was saying, he goes to a better school by his daddy and he is doing so much better there! Yay!! I actually love the school and before switching my son Jayden, I had already heard so many good things about the school. So I decided to give the schools a try. He went from one school to the other, and he went from doing not so good to doing great! I saw the difference from the change, and it’s awesome! I’m so proud, I’m one proud mother of one. He comes by me on the weekend and this weekend it was a holiday right behind it, Labor Day which was Monday and he also had Tuesday off. He went back to school Wednesday, he’s not far from me at all and even though I see him everyday, I still always miss him when he is gone. But, his education comes first, and the first school he was attending was horrible and they had so many complaints. So, I had to do what was best for him, and his education.

My son Jayden and I. He’s my pride and my joy.

My son’s father and I do whatever it takes to make sure our son is okay, and taken care of. From spending time with him and showing him what love really is, to showing him how important an education is, and that you can’t make it without it. Showing him life is what you make of it, so enjoy it. Teaching him right from wrong, because doing wrong gets you nowhere in life.

That’ll be another discussion, and another post that I will talk about. Upholding your kids when they do wrong.

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Stress Really Kills

Stress Really Kills
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There are so many ways stress can kill you. Increased levels of cortisol, which is regularly referred to as the stress hormone. Raised cortisol levels stand in the way with learning and memory, lower immune function and also bone density, and as well increased high blood pressure, cholesterol and heart disease.

Chronic stress is risky/dangerous to health and can guide you to an early death from cancer heart disease, ,and other health problems. It does not matter if the stress comes from major life occurrence in life or from minor problems. They both can be deadly.

Whether it is minor stress, or major stress, it does not matter, stress period isn’t good for your health. It may seem like stressing isn’t harming your body, just because you don’t realize it. You May be thinking that illness is entirely the blame for those irritating but constant headaches, the very frequent insomnia, or even reduced efficiency at work. But stress can most definitely be the cause.

Hello everyone!!! I hope everyone is having a great Tuesday. I want to talk to you guys about stress. Stress KILLS!! It recently took a good friend of mine, and my sisters as well. It is really no joke, You know you hear these things but it doesn’t really hit you until it happens to you or someone close to you. She was only 26yrs old so beautiful, young, and full of life!!! She also left behind her beautiful baby girl, she’s only 4yrs old. She doesn’t understand at all. How do you tell a child that their mom is never coming back home! This is so hard for us all, it caught us all off guard! She was actually just with me, she was so happy I got me a place. She was suppose to help me decorate and all, but I guess God had other plans. I just wish she could have stayed with her daughter a little longer, you know? So many people are so shocked about this happening to her, she had a heart attack. It really doesn’t matter the age at all, anyone can catch a heart attack. Honestly, I’m so hurt about this happening, but she was so stressed out. Stress isn’t good for no one, and I’ve been telling so many people about my friend’s Marckeyshia death, and that stress kills, I have to also remind myself that. Dealing with major depression and anxiety, I need to constantly remind myself of this.

Everyday I remind myself that stress can kill you, It’s no joke at all. Take care of yourself and stress less.

Marckeyshia was a sweet person in and out, there was nothing about her you wouldn’t like. She was a great mother to her daughter, she always kept a smile on her face. You wouldn’t have never thought she was so stressed out, but she was. What makes it so hard for me, I was just with her a day before she died. We talked, we laughed, and we even cried a little. I just wish I could have taken all her pain away. I wish she could have lived longer, not for me, but for her precious daughter. This is a hard one for my sisters, and I, as well as her sisters and brothers. I’m praying for them all. She struggled, she was so stressed, God knew what was best. Marckeyshia Monique Washington I love you!!!!! I promise I will look out for your baby girl, I promise that if she need anything and I have it, she have it!! I know I can never be mom, but I promise to never let her forget you, and i will do the best I can for her, because right now she doesn’t understand that mother is not coming back. She said to a aunt, my mama died, she always dying. She know her mom has passed out before. (tears) I can’t stop the tears, we all have to keep our self together though.

This is truly a wake up call for us all, her sisters and brothers, as well as my sisters and I. Stress is real and depression is real. I’ve been knowing that it doesn’t matter how old you are, anyone can catch a heart attack from stress or just a heart attack period, but this happening has really shown me it’s no joke at all. It is in fact real, and being stressed out can actually kill you. Everyday is a reminder for me, because I deal with anxiety and major depression, so stress is in there so I wrote down some ways to help manage stressful times. Stress can affect your body, your thoughts, your feelings, and your behavior. Stress kills, it’s real. If you recognize stress symptoms, it can help you to know the symptoms and how to manage them. Stress that’s not checked on, can definitely contribute to many health problems, like high blood pressure, obesity, and diabetes. Taking care of yourself is a must, stress kills, and believe me it’s real.

I found out along time ago, that it doesn’t matter how old you are, you can most definitely catch a heart attack. It has no age, and if you aren’t taking care of yourself, or have a sickness, than you’re at a higher risk for a heart attack. Losing a close friend is so hard I’ve been being strong as much as I can. I know death has no age, or a heart attack but she was so young, beautiful, and a great mother. When you’ve been knowing someone for so long, and talked everyday, or saw each other everyday, It makes it even harder. I know she’s in a better place now, no more pain, and no more stress. I know she wouldn’t want us stressed, or in pain because she’s gone, she would want us to live. Even though It’s hard I will do just that and do my best because stress is real, stress really does kill. It took my friend. I promise to be there for her 4yr old daughter, anyway possible. I promise to always show her pictures of her mother all the time, and to let her know mom is looking down on you and to make her proud. I promise to be there for her through the hard times, and the sad times, because when she start growing up she’s going to have questions, she might even cry at times, because a little girl losing her mother is a hard thing to deal with. I can never take the place of you, Marckeyshia, but I will be there with her every step of the way, me, as well as my sisters, and your sisters. She have all of us.

Fly high baby girl, Marckeyshia!!! We love you and most definitely going to miss you!!! We promise to be there for your baby girl.

This year has been rough, so many deaths, so many losses. But I have to keep pushing, I have my son who needs me, now my friend’s daughter, and I promise to push harder. Stress is real and it’s no joke people, if you find yourself stressed out, take deep breathes, find out what’s good to relieve stress, get some help. There are many things you can do to relieve stress, I have a list of things down below. Check them out once you are done reading. It took me awhile to actually write this, because It’s all still fresh, the pain is still here. Lost a good friend on, 7/17/2019 and also a classmate before, life is so short you all need to enjoy life to the fullest because you never know when it’s your last time here. Smile, laugh, love, and enjoy your love ones. Remember, don’t stress over things you can’t change and definitely don’t sweat the minor things, stress is real and stress kills. Down below are ways to help manage stressful times. I loss a good friend to it, plus she had diabetes. I know she was stressed out, being a single mother, It is rough but I wish I could have one more day with her, to let her know like I did before, stressing isn’t good, I love you take care of yourself please, or If I can help with anything you know you can come or call me at anytime. Marckeyshia was just like me though, she just didn’t want to feel like a bother, or hated to ask others for something no matter how close you were, you just don’t want to bother others. I am the exact same way we can be close kin, and I would feel like a bother. No matter how close we are, we could talk everyday all day, and if I need something, I wouldn’t ask. I don’t know why or why if I know for a fact that person would help me, why wouldn’t I ask. That’s just me, I don’t know why.

That’s what a lot of people tell me, that they don’t understand why I do that, why I never tell them I needed the help, or need the help. I couldn’t tell you why. I just don’t like to feel like a bother. But I would just be worried and more worried on the inside. Really driving myself to a migraine on the inside, because I need the help but would really hate to ask, really hate to be a bother because times is hard for everyone. That’s stressing. This is why it is good to talk about everything, as long as it’s someone you trust, I would really sit and talk to them. If it’s someone you trust and it’s someone you know wouldn’t mind helping you out, I’d say go for it that’s one less of stress. Down below are some ways to relieve stress, and ways to help with stress. There’s so many ways to relieve stress, for every stressful moment, in your life. Take a look, try them out and tell me what you think, it’s not good to stress, it’s not good for your health. So, we are all going to do what’s best for our health which is stress less, always pray, and know that everything is going to be okay. Know that you’re blessed and you have no time to be stressed.

To blessed to be to stressed.

Ok, indeed stress symptoms can affect your body, your thoughts and as well as your feelings, and yes, even your behavior as well. Being able to recognize these stress symptoms can actually help you manage them. Stress that’s left unchecked can lead to many health problems, such as heart disease, high blood pressure, obesity, and as well as diabetes.

If you’re having stress symptoms, there are many ways and steps to take to help manage your stressful moments, and doing so can also have health benefits. Research stress management strategies such as:

Doing, and getting physical activity

Practicing relaxation methods such as breathing, meditation, yoga, tai chi or massage.

Maintaining a sense of humor

Spending time with family and friends

Making time for hobbies, such as reading a book, writing, or listening to music

Line up to find active ways to manage your stress.

Inactive ways to manage stress — such as watching television, surfing the Internet or playing video games — may seem relaxing, but they may be increasing your stress over the long term.

Make sure to get plenty of sleep and eat a healthy, balance diet. Avoid excess caffeine and alcohol and tobacco use, and the use of illegal substances.

When to seek help

If you’re not sure if it’s stress the cause or if you’ve taken steps to control your stress but those symptoms continue, make sure to see your doctor. Your doctor might want to check you for other causes. Or even think about seeing a therapist or a professional counselor, who can help you identify sources of your stress and learn new coping skills.

It’s best to learn new coping strategies about stress symptoms. Stress symptoms, is a silent killer take care of yourself and know the signs and symptoms of stress. Do what’s best for your health, and don’t stress. It is indeed true, to not sweat the small stuff because stress can most definitely kill you.

Take care of yourself and know the signs and symptoms of stress. Remember do not stress! Also, I hope you guys are having a beautiful, and blessed day today and I hope you have enjoyed what you’ve read. If so, can you please like and follow for more. Thanks in advance, and Part 2 on stress really kills coming up soon.

It’s Been Awhile… But I’m Still Alive

It’s Been Awhile… But I’m Still Alive
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Hello everyone!! I know it’s been awhile, but I had to take care of me. It got to a point to where I lost so much weight, and I’m already a petite woman. My weight has been going up and down for some time now. My normal weight would be 114 and I had gone down to as low as 90 pounds. Oh my God right?! I’m not perfect at all, and i am also still working on me, and I’m doing so much better now. I am now at 104 pounds, and i plan to keep it this way. Sometimes I get so stressed and depressed to where I won’t eat, it’s not purposely, but if you deal with major depression, or any other mental illness you’ll understand. My doctors are so caring, it could be after business hours and she/or he would call me just to make sure i’m okay, or just to let me know that someone actually cares. They would call just to make sure I ate something that day, even if it’s eating on crackers, or a sandwich, but making sure I drink plenty fluids, especially water. I have great doctors!! They’ll call amd check up on me, motivate me, while also helping me. 

While doing all that, they also reminded me that my son Jayden needs his mother, also he needs his mother to be strong! He needs his mother to be healthy! I can’t be strong or healthy not eating or drinking anything. Like I said, it’s not purposely, but after 2/14/2019 I made a commitment to myself, no matter how depressed or stressed I may get I will make myself eat and drink something, I can’t and won’t keep doing this to myself. 

I decided that my health is way more important. Major depressive disorder and anxiety isn’t easy at all, or any other mental illness, and being around negative people, isn’t healthy. I stay in a house with 6 adults and 5 kids and I only have 1 child, there’s no peace, no quiet, no privacy, and last but not least, no understanding. My mental illness is crazy to them.

To them, my depression isn’t serious!! I can just snap out of it to them. Which we all know, it doesn’t work like that! We all wish that it would and could though right??! Depression is real! Depression can also be very severe. My depression so serious to where my doctor’s are trying to sign me up for disability. But to my family it’s not.

“You have no reason to be depressed,” or “I’ve had depression but it went right away.” This is what I hear all the time. Oh yeah and, “You choose to be this way.” Really?! Who would choose to be sad everyday? Who would choose to have a fight everyday with their mind? Who would choose to have all those different emotions and feelings everyday? Who would choose to just wake up in despair everyday? Who would choose not to eat on purpose?

Being around all that would really take a toll on you. Lately I’ve been in good spirit, and I’m not letting no one get to me anymore. I have to do better for my son and I, and that I am doing. I got a call for a 2 bedroom apartment, and I thank God for it. That’ll be a great start for my son and I, and also a peace of mind.

I’m not complaining but staying in a crowded house, plus having a mental illness, hearing nothing but negativity, no understanding about your mental illness, no peace and quiet, and people saying “you’re crazy” or you chose to be that way,” is stressful. Also, it’s not good for your health or your mental health.

This is why I understand those who struggle alone, and have no one to lean on. Some people are just careless, and ignorant. They sound just the way they talk… Ignorant.

But you are not alone, and I’m one good example. There’s plenty other people struggling but won’t come out with it because of the negativity and ignorance people say. Mainly family members.

Getting help and knowing you need help is just showing how strong you are, and that you care enough to get help and knowing what people say doesn’t matter!!

P.s sorry everyone for the long long absence to all my followers… I’m doing great, I’m much better than ever and eating everyday, and taking my medicine everyday how I am supposed too. 🥰🥰😘😘 I hope each and everyone of you have a great and blessed day/week.