It is the most darkest place one could face alone,
A journey filled with struggles solo, all alone.
Everyday filled with many groans,
Everyday is a new battle,
Against the same competitor.
Yet the enemy exchanges blows back with irrational roars.
It sneaks up on you in your most helpless shape,
Mostly when there’s no around who can communicate.
The thoughts in your brain begins to expand and distend,
Which drags you into your private repressed nightmare.
Fabrications and organism from your past
Served as pain, that you can’t withstand.
Lastly sleep always comes as a greeting friend,
Knowing the next morning the continual battle begins yes, yet again.
This poem is about the daily struggle with self image, feeling like you’re not good enough for yourself or nobody else. It’s a daily battle of trying to feel accepted, and also, the struggle of learning to love yourself.
In order to love someone else, you have to first start by loving yourself.
Everyday, there is a battle to face. But don’t give up, life is to short, put a smile on your face, and take control over those battles you face, everyday.
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Good morning to all of my followers, and readers. Thanks for taking time out of your day to read what i have to say. I hope and i pray, that today, each and everyone of you, has a blessed day.
Most people think that you’re faking it, like it’s all in your head, or saying you’re just lazy, or maybe even think that you’re crazy.
Why would i make all of this up? I’m not crazy. I can’t help it i can’t just make up all of these thoughts. Do you think i get up everyday wanting to be distraught? Some people are nuts.
Everyday is hard, everyday is rough, but i still push myself because i can’t, and i won’t give up. Having all these feelings, and having all these thoughts, and the people around me feels, “i just need to suck it up.”
I know right? That is messed up!
Like we all, just wake up everyday determined, to prepare all this stuff, the different thoughts, the feelings of wanting to give up, the feelings of guilt, and the feelings like everything is your fault. Major depression and anxiety, is already hard as it is, and every time i turn around people are talking negative, like mental illnesses isn’t real. Like it’s all in your head, like you can control how you feel.
Depression is nothing but darkness as it is, and family/people not believing that your really ill, not believing depression is actually real or even severe. Like i asked for all this, like i wanted this type of atmosphere. Always feeling guilty and always feeling hopeless, nobody cares and nobody ever notices. Everyday, i get on my knees and i pray. Praying and hoping, that people will understand one day.
Understand that, we’re all still humans, understand that it can even happen to you. Understand that we don’t like, and we didn’t choose, the feelings, and the emotions, mental illnesses brings us through. Understand, we’re not crazy, and we’re not insane, the only difference is, our brains just overthinks. Depression (all mental illnesses) is real, it’s definitely not fake, depression can hit you, you, you, or you any day.
Depression, anxiety, bipolar, panic disorder, and any other mental illness, does not discriminate. Some people think that it can’t happen to them, but believe me, it can happen to you too.
If you, or someone you know struggling with a mental illness, get help. Nothing is wrong with asking for help, i can vouch for that. I was ashamed to say i needed help, i was ashamed to say how i was feeling, i was ashamed to explain those thoughts that was in my brain, because i thought people would call me crazy, or even insane. But asking for help does not mean you’re weak or defective, depression is really an illness caused by a biochemical imbalance in the brain. You’re a very strong person because, it takes a great deal of strength to fight back, and you’re doing just that. You aren’t weak, everybody needs some kind of help, with something in some way in their lives, and everybody needs somebody, it might not be now, but as time goes by. It’s apart of life.
Do You Agree??
To my beautiful followers, i want to thank each and everyone of you, for taking time out of your day to read every blog post, and for the comments, and the likes.
Are you tired of the mental health stigma? Are you tired of being called crazy or insane? Are you tired of the negativity about mental illnesses? Are you tired of people saying it’s all in your head? Feel free to like, comment, and share. Let’stalk.
At times we all feel sad, moody, low, or irritated fromtime to time, there’s some people experience these feelings extremely, for long periods of time (weeks, months, and even years) sometimes without any clear reason. Depression is more than a low mood, it’s actually a really serious condition that affects your mental and physical health.
Depression (major depressive disorder) is a widespread and a really serious mental illness that negatively have an impact on how you feel, the way you act, and even the way you think. Thankfully, it’s treatable.
Depressioncausesfeelingsofsadness, lossinterestinthingsyouonceloved. Depressioncancause a rangeofemotionsandphysicalproblems. Depression can also reduce your ability to operate at work as well as at home.
Feeling guilty or worthless problem thinking, concentrating, orevenmakingdecisions
Thoughtsof death or suicide
What causes depression?
No one knows exactly what causes depression, there’s many of things that’s connected to it’s growth. Depression usually results from a mixture of current events and other personal elements, rather than one immediate issue or event.
Down below, I broke down the feelings, thoughts, and physical/bodilysymptoms of depression…..
Feelings of depression:
Thoughts of depression:
It’s all my fault
I’m so worthless
I’m such a failure
They’ll be better off without me
Good things never happen for me
Why am I here
My life sucks
I’m so stupid
I’m so dumb
I hate life
Physical symptoms of depression:
Tired all the time
Headaches as well as muscle pain
Change/loss of appetite
Unusual weightlossor gain
Are you/or think someone you know may be experiencing depression? Do you feel sad constantly? Do you feel worthless? Do you feel nothing but guilt? Do you constantly feel like a failure? Don’t enjoy things you once loved to do? Do you get agitated a lot and always moody? Do you feel like you can’t control those intense emotions/feelings? Do you feel ashamed of all those thoughts and feelings?
Don’t be ashamed, don’t be embarrassed, and don’t wait to get help. There is help and you are not alone. You have absolutely nothing to be ashamed of. Join the club. I myself, suffer with depression and having it is not easy at all. Depression does not go away on it’s own, but there’s medications that help. I’m actually seeing improvement with my medications. I take Zoloft 150mg every morning along with a few others. Please talk to your health physician and be honest about how you are feeling/or how you have been feeling. From there you two can decide which medications are right for you.
Ok you Guys, that is my definition of depression. What do you think?
Please feel free to leave comments. Also, feel free to like and share. I really wanna think all of my followers for all the likes and comments, and views. I really didn’t think I would even get this many followers that I do have. Thank you to each and every one of you! I love to write, which is why I started my blog. I also suffer with major depression and anxiety, I know the symptoms and the signs of both. I’ve also had experiences, and I know that depression/anxiety is really real, it’s a really serious mental illness. Depression, sometimes go undiagnosed because some don’t confront it, or because friends/family members don’t recognize the symptoms. Some might even be hesitant to go get the help they need. That’s why family members should be looking out(for you) or whoever, for signs and symptoms of depression. You should also know the signs if you don’t, that’s why I’m here. Like I was saying, I really didn’t think no one would follower me or even read my blog. You guys proved me so wrong! I started it to write poems and also to talk about mental health, mental illnesses, life, life with depression and so on. I used to be ashamed but now I’m taking a stand!! Talking about it actually helps, and talking about my experiences along my journey with depression might help someone else.